July, 2nd

Late at night, where I don’t even know how late it is.
The dazzling stars are more mesmerising rather than the cold night.
Sipping slowly a cup of coffee company from the lonely night.
Night, 
where everything, every single thing keeps you thinking.
There are times when you're having a thought of leaving.
Leaving all the scars yet you are still there with all those memories.
How come you forget all those when it’s the thing that keeps you alive.
When you need someone to talk to, yet you’re here watching the wide sky all over the darkest night.
You open up the diary that you used to write. Flipping every page all over on a paper.
The night seems colder.
Slowly, your hand reaches all over the side of your blue jeans and you start to smoke.

The feeling where you want your mind at peace.
Blowing the smoke like how you want to blow things that you have all over your mind.
July 2nd,
how fast time changes.
How time flies.
How you almost reach the end page of the year. Soon or sooner.
What makes you realise, how everything seems clear all over your mind.
You finish the first cigarette and reach for more.
Just to keep your mind busy while your hand is resting.
Night never seems darker. Never feel so lonely.
The thought of how you feel more sorry for yourself. How you will never feel understood.
Not even to yourself, empty shit. Makes you beg for empathy, looking for sympathy.  
Bad ass!!
The night teaches you something.
Makes you learn from what you have ever missed. Nothing lasts forever.
How beautiful the day is, no matter what. Your night might still feel lonely.
Life never makes you feel full no matter how much you fill your day.
Succumb. All over your mind. It makes you think you love yourself better now.
Paint all your life. Where you keep missing. Vanishing all of what makes you feel down.
Yet it is still there. You’re still on the other side no matter how much you're gonna embrace.
You fill with rage, losing all the grace. Things that you always need to face. 
When you think you can keep hold back the river.
The water keeps flowing.
Never stop thinking about what makes you feel happy,
no matter how it is also the things that make you broke.
Cause after all, that is worth a moment of your life.
So, keep being thankful.
No matter how you feel, embrace it.
Cause in the end you’ll find the answer. The one that you’re looking for.
One that never stops yourself from sinking.
Hold on. 
If you can’t reach for a hand you still have two feets to lift you up. 
So, keep believing. Never let it fade.

Keep waiting cause you're believer that 

true love lasts forever